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Saturday, February 26, 2011

The Fall!

I haven't updated in ages, so I thought I'd drop a line.

In recent news, I had a big shock today. I go horse-riding every Saturday (have for years) and today I had my first major fall. And wow, it was big! Now, if any horse riding professionals drop in, please don't make fun of me, because I thought it was big.

So there I was, trotting along in neat circles with seven (7!) other riders (numbers change, seven at the same time isn't the most I've had but yes, it gets cramped). My horse - okay, so he's not mine, but let me continue pretending - is called Copper, and he likes to go fast. Which is great, and I love him for it, but it's not useful when you're trotting together with seven other horses and you're third in line. And the horse in front of you kicks.

When this happens, you generally fall into a fast-slow pattern. Which is where Copper goes fast, until, suddenly, he feels the reins and slows down. This lasts for about ten seconds before he gets bored/I-kick-him-on-because-he's-basically-walking and then he's going at about 60kmh.

For all you non-horse fanatics out there, there is this thing called a "forward-going trot" which is, very basically, the proper trot. If your horse isn't doing it, he might trip. Especially if he's Copper and tries to pull the reins out of your hands by pulling down his head.

So - here, after that long speech, comes the important part - one minute I'm trotting along, the next, I feel Copper stumble, his head goes waaaaay down, his knees buckle, and I'm flying over his head.

I will, however, bask in this. I didn't lie there. I got up and went to Copper (was there before my instructor, too) and started patting him as he half-sat/half-lay there and pretending my hands weren't shaking. And my knees. My entire body really.

But despite my tears, my shallow breathing and my uncontrollable shaking, my instructor let me pretend there was nothing wrong and I got back on.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Why Murder is So Horrible

Why does this even need an explanation, you might think. It just is – we never think about it deeply, but it’s obviously, unquestionably wrong. Right?

I’m not going to argue. I, for one, am most definitely all for the idea that murder is wrong. Not just wrong, but heart-breaking. I am trying to use the right words to describe the raw pain I feel in my chest just thinking about it.

Because no matter where someone goes after they die, you have to look back at how they lived. No, not how they lived, but the fact they lived at all.

Do people ever think about it? We’ve all heard the phrase “with feelings” before (usually in relation to animals), but it’s so little.

Think about all your thoughts you’ve ever had. The tiny, useless talents you’ve accumulated. The big challenges you’ve faced. The dreams you had – maybe for a wife/husband to share your life with, kids to bring up. Maybe occasionally you faced a problem, got through it, and imagined talking to your kids about it.

Even the small things, like funny accidents you had, embarrassing mistakes you made. Your personality, your sense of humour, your opinions, the way you do small things – maybe you’re so stubborn you’ve made people cry about the tiniest arguments, just to get your way. Maybe you’re so kind-hearted you remember fighting through the pain to forgive someone for something terrible, just because you couldn’t leave them looking so sad.

Imagine all of that. That’s you. Your entire life, is a giant story. And when you die, that story ends. Full stop. There’s no coming back. Everyone you knew just has to live on without you, knowing your useless talents are ones they will never see again, your witless jokes will never be spoken, your tears never comforted. You will never be seen.

So my point is basically, when someone dies, it’s so much more than a life that’s being snuffed out. It’s not about the organs that stopped working, the blood that froze. It’s about the character, the very being of the person who will never get to share their personality again. Their story ended halfway.

The whole world, in my opinion, is like one giant story. But when people die, that’s every individual thread of story dropping away. And just because the giant story remains, it doesn’t mean theirs don’t matter. Theirs become so much more special, as without them, all the other stories would be different.

Murder isn’t bad because of the body that falls. It’s about the story ending, and ending before its time had come. And that is the real crime. No one should not get to see the ending of the story, come naturally and at the right time.

Monday, December 13, 2010

If I Never Knew You

In case you didn't know, I'm a big fan of Disney. I know nearly all of their songs. Most of them I can sing without looking up the lyrics, and the ones I can't, I generally know where they're from. But I found a song today I'd forgotten about which is absolutely beautiful. I looked up the lyrics so I could sing along, and was disappointed to find there were no correct lyrics online. So I quickly typed them up myself, and here they are.

A (J) means John, (P) means Pocahontas and (B) means (tada) both.

If I Never Knew You

(J)
If I never knew you
If I never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be

If I never held you
I would never have a clue
How at last I'd find in you
The missing part of me

In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes
So dry your eyes

And I'm so grateful to you
Id have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

(P)
I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we'd make the whole world bright
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong
All they'd leave us were these whispers in the night
But still my heart is saying we were right

(P) For if I never knew you
(J) There's no moment I regret
(P) If I never felt this love
(J) Since the moment that we met
(P) I would have no inkling of
(J) If our time has gone too fast
(P) How precious life can be
(J) I've lived at last

(Dialog)

(J)
And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky

(P)
Never knowing why

(B)
Lost forever
If I never knew you


Sunday, October 17, 2010

17 October

Hello everyone!

News - we have two new interns! Which is exciting, because I never thought we'd get interns, our church is so small. But now we have our own building (for more than a year, which seems ridiculous) and our own youth club, they'll actually have stuff to do.

They're really nice. One girl (Haley) is from America, the other from South Korea. And I cannot remember her name, but we call her 'Ani' (at least, I think that's how it's spelt) which is a term of respectful older-sister affection. I think her name is... Chani... or something. Ani, if you ever read this, I apologise again for forgetting your name. I have explained how terrible my memory is when it comes to people, so I hope you understand.

Anyways, they're staying in our house for two months, and then we'll figure out other arrangements. I've had long chats with Haley, who is also obsessed with Disney, and some short chats with Ani, whose English isn't as good. I also got to read Haley five chapters of Harry Potter - we're going to try and finish the whole series.

What else? I'm in the chorus for our school play (Annie, yes, how original) which is fun, but means I have to leave church early because there's practice on Sundays at 1-3pm. And tomorrow we're eating dinner at church as a family, so I'm missing most of it. Luckily I'll be back for an hour, so I'll get to eat.

Funfair's come to town. My brother, the interns and I plan on heading there tomorrow. That will hopefully be full of thrills.

We watched Armoured tonight (Saturday = Movie Night) and it was good, even though the ending just implies it's happy, we don't actually see the happiness occur, which is frustrating.

Sorry about this meaningless post. Just thought I'd drop a post in, and I promise to post something meaningful soon.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

With You - Superchick

Superchick's newest album doesn't have the lyrics for this song online yet, so I put them up. They're really beautiful.

I will walk beside you
Good and bad times
Busk the streets for spare change
I'll hold the sign
Though the storms may blow down
All that we own
I will not be homeless
You are home

Through it all
I'll go down to the bottom with you
They can take it all away
But I'll be alright with you
As long as you are by my side
I'll be okay, I'll be alright
With you

Charge the gates with fury
Blaze through the lines
Do not fear for safety
Yours or mine
Walk the path untravelled
Faith be your guide
I will walk beside you
All our lives

Risk it all
I'll go through anything with you
They can take it all away
But I'll be alright with you
As long as you are in my life
I'll be okay, I'll be alright
With you

Indoctrination Today

Indoctrination is a word we usually recognise as something from the past, used by dictators to control their people, using propaganda, or using phrases over and over until they were ingrained in the public's brains. Indoctrination makes you, unconsciously, think of an unintelligent person - or at least an irrational, unobservant one. Surely someone who was being indoctrinated would notice? And wouldn't logic be against them? Being told all Jews are animals - that's not logical, who would believe that?

But it's terribly rude and arrogant to consider yourself smarter than others - and I'm sure that if entire countries could be indoctrinated so well, so could you.

"But!" I hear someone cry "We have better systems today - democracies, freedom of speech and thought, people can't be indoctrinated, we get to make up our own minds!" etc, etc. True, in a sense, but that will come later. Let's first look at the definition for indoctrination (dictionary.com)

1. to instruct in a doctrine, principle, ideology, etc., esp. to imbue with a specific partisan or biased belief or point of view.
2.
to teach or inculcate.
3.
to imbue with learning.

Well, to explain (often in dictionaries you end up just looking up more words), imbuing something is soaking it up, so you would be saturated with the doctrine, principle, ideology, etc. Inculcate is the word which really strengthens the view - inculcating an idea is teaching it persistently, eagerly, repeating it over and over.

Indoctrination is, in my opinion, a form of manipulation. If you're smart, you can make someone know something so deeply, not only do they not question it, they also think they thought it up in the first place.

This doesn't mean everyone who believes strongly in an ideal has been indoctrinated with it - sometimes people have really tested and tried their ideals, or just really, honestly, want to follow it with nothing involved.

But their is indoctrination in our world today - and it's not far away, in one of those countries we associate with badness and poverty, like the giant country of 'Africa', or China, or Mexico. It's right here, on our doorstep.

I've gone to school since I was four, and ever since I was old enough to think about it, I've noticed it. It's propaganda for indoctrination - people are indoctrinating us with evolutionary theories. They're also ramming 'religion' down our throats, yes, but that's so obvious people actually shy away from it. No, the indoctrination in our schools is so subtle I doubt any of the staff actually know it - that's the talent of indoctrination, you end up believing it yourself, believing it's your idea.

Although, going to a Catholic secondary school, I've been forced to sit through morning 'prayers' and have had to leave school as everyone else heads off to Mass, or miss half a day while the other students have confession, I've also had evolution, and it wasn't set on the calender as "Evolution Class - nonbelievers go home" or anything like that.

Examples of this are when in History class your teacher says something like 100,000 years ago was the Mesolithic Stone Age (I haven't checked that date, but replace Mesolithic Stone Age with the correct answer) or in Geography class where the teacher tells you about how the plates were formed, billions of years ago.

This is all Old Earth theory, belonging in the evolutionary standpoint, and it isn't brought in as a theory, it's brought in as fact. It's brought in in such a way, that even if you have a questioning mind, it seems like a thing you would never question. It's put in on Discovery Channels, and in Wikipedia. All of our information has gradually turned evolution into a fact - until we no longer question it, it's just reliable. Evolution scientists actually help promote the idea that evolution is right and everything else (mainly religion or Christianity) is wrong, by making it out that they (religion etc) indoctrinate people and that evolution began as a way of finding answers.

Both true, yes - religions have indoctrinated people before, and evolution was just a man trying to find an explanation for the world around him.

But times have changed - now evolution is dragged in so subtly we all subconsciously decide it's true.

I'm not saying evolution shouldn't be taught. I think, with the freedom of speech, all theories have the right to be heard. But I do think it should be taught honestly, from an objective standpoint - as should religion. And until we figure out how to do that, we can't manipulate people into believing it.

Today a large majority of people in Ireland believe in evolution (even if they're Catholics) and the ones who don't usually don't do it for a logical reason, they just remain loyal to beliefs which state evolution is wrong. Which is also the wrong way to go - and makes anyone who doesn't believe in evolution look stupid.

I'm a Christian. I go to school, and I'm sick and tired of hearing people being manipulated every day and being unable to do anything about it. Please take indoctrination out of our schools, off our televisions and out of our networks.

Thank you.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Logic VS Faith

In case you haven't noticed yet, I'm a Christian. I have a very personal relationship with Jesus. It isn't a Sunday morning thing where I get a biscuit and a cup of tea, or a Christmas thing, or an Easter thing. It's a day-to-day walking with my best friend.

Obviously, this takes considerable faith. I am most definitely a person with faith. I have faith in my friend, my saviour, that he will always be there for me. I have faith he exists. I have faith he knows what's best for me and that he wants that too.

But, for a person filled with so much faith, you'd be surprised how much I base my life on logic.

If you have ever thought about it, you will realise people think in different ways - another way in which people are unique. Everyone thinks slightly differently, probably a mixture of nature and nurture, but a very famous personality questionnaire called the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator gives you one very good idea of how it works.

Basically, there are sixteen personality types, and each of them has been given a different name. You can be an INTJ, or an ESFP, or anything in between (not that there's an inbetween exactly). For more information, I'd suggest googling it, or perhaps even taking the test (type 'myers-briggs test jung' for a free, reliable scoring), as I'm supposed to be making a point here.

My point, however, is that I took this test. I'm actually slightly between two different personalities - the INTP and the INTJ. Long story. But these two personalities are known to be very logical, analytical personalities. INTJ's are called 'The Scientists' and INTP's are called 'The Thinkers'.

I base most of my decisions on science, when that fails me, logic, and when that fails me, rational thought. There is a difference. I will go into why science isn't always logical another time.

But to finally reach my original point - there is no versus. Or, at least, there doesn't have to be. You don't have to choose. I live a life with faith and logic, and I have to say I think I've turned out pretty well. I'm not perfect, but I know how to think for myself, I know how to hope, I know how to trust, and I have a God whom I love.

Logic is not faith's enemy. Science is not faith's enemy (read my blog on 'Creationism Is Not A Science' where I show why I disagree with that viewpoint). Faith is believing in something. Logic is based on a world around me. I can rationally decide to put my hope in something, because logic itself does not cancel out a God. But that is another argument for another time.

Comment if you agree, disagree, or are just plain confused...